The Heroin Diaries p. 204-321

         I enjoyed reading this section more than I have the previous sections. I think it was because Nikki finally got off the drugs (for a while) and he even claimed to be happy at some points which I was a little surprised by. I think the first shift I saw in Nikki was on page 208 when he said "The guys are going to a strip club, I just know if get in trouble if I go. I'm gonna work on some music..." That stood out to me because normally when Nikki is on drugs he's all about strip clubs and alcohol, but now he knows it's trouble and he didn't want anything to do with it. Another part that stood out to me was on page 268 that said "He's (Robbin) is coming over to pick me up and we're gonna catch a movie." When Nikki was on dope before, he never would leave his house. He'd always stay locked up because he didn't want to be social and it scared him. Now that he's off drugs he's actually getting out of the house and socializing.
         There's also parts that show that he's not completely okay though as well. For example, on page 220 he admits that if he didn't have his diary, there'd be no escape from the demons in his head. I thought this was only something that happened to him when he was drugged up and he heard the voices making him go crazy, but now I think it might just be something from the depression that will never go away. Then, on page 245 he actually started doing heroin again. He wasn't shooting it though. I knew all along he was going to start using again, but this is the part that stood out to me and made me realize that he was going to relapse sooner than later.
       

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  1. Ryan O'ConnorOctober 25, 2017 at 2:08 PM

    I think I am also into reading this book now, before I had a hard time reading the book and it felt slow and I couldn’t focus because he would just go from one day to the next and some were short and other days it felt like they would never end while you read them. I think that if Nikki didn’t have his diary we wouldn’t know anything about who he is and I personally would have never know about their band, music, or story. He does seem to be changing but at sometimes it’s for the best but a lot of the times it is for the worst. He sees his ways, and how bad they are yet he keeps going to do drugs, and do girls and it only seems to get worse after he makes 2 good decisions, it’s always 5 bad decisions.

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  2. Elizabeth McCreeryOctober 28, 2017 at 6:03 PM

    I was glad that Nikki got off drugs too. Although he didn’t get completely clean because he was still taking coke and other drugs. Heroin was definitely the trickiest for him to be clean of, but he finally did it. However, I don’t think he necessarily didn’t want to go out fully because of getting in trouble. I think that was only part of why he didn’t go. I think the other part was his depression roaring its ugly head in. He just didn’t feel like having crazy fun. I do agree with the thought about his demons. They’re not just someone who pop up when he was on drugs. It was a constant issue he had due to his depression and other mental issues.

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  3. Austin BrownOctober 31, 2017 at 4:36 PM

    I was initially happen when Nikki said that he was off of the drugs. I then realized there was no way he was done for sure, he still had way too many bad in influences around him and it was just too easy for him to slip up. Then sure enough he does, but you can`t help but feel terrible for him and feel with him. You have to respect how hard he is trying to get out of this nasty place but he just cant find the one thing to grab onto to pull him completely out. I could only imagine those "voices" in his head, just that constant craving and itching for more. I would imagine it would be like feeling for nicotine times about 100. I am really interested in to see what will be that thing he will be able to grab onto to take him out of this whole he has dug himself into.

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